If you've got visions of the past....

In the midst of the balloons and the sweat and the shiny happy people, my friends who are the loves of my life, and all that jazz and champagne and party hats, the only thing that I could think of was God.

I don't care much for the New Year celebration, but let me tell you, and this is a weird experience for me too, it didn't feel like the New Year until I went to Mass.

I know I'm not the best Catholic, I forget am too lazy to pray or be much other than an useless emo lump most of the time. But sometimes you get a little burst of faith and love and divine providence, and a little bit of you is happy and a little bit of you is sad.

Everyone reflects on their life when a new beginning is around the corner, I guess it provides a milestone. If you're like me, you always believe there's a reason. "Courage, there is a purpose for this." Sometimes I wonder how many messes I've created going into it blinded by my own conviction that it is the divine will I am following. Sometimes I want to see God's concept map right now. It's okay though - I'm sure our Father has a great surprise for me. Or more than one. I'm happy I have such a good Father even though I struggle a lot.

I wish you all a very happy new year. Keep in touch with me.

If you are reading this, I love you. But I don't necessarily have to like you.

Cheers!