Sometimes it feels like
no matter what I do
I'm always faced with a brick wall
standing in front of me.
His feet are firm and hard
and he has no family
so all he has to do is spend time
with whomever gives him a chance.

I didn't want to but everywhere I turned,
he found a way to slip by and settle.
I tried to move him,
lose him,
but every decision I made,
he seemed to anticipate
and the fleeting moments of
being content and happy
made no sense
when I saw the tell-tale rubble skirting my ankles.

I ended up adopting him,
naming him Disappointment
and he knew what he was,
my stillborn follower.
He still makes me try, you know,
to break free,
to have goals that reach high above the sky and beyond,
even though his massive presence blocks out the sunlight.
I suppose I can only keep trying,
keep failing,
keep hoping,
keep dreaming.

One day it will all be okay.