Week 56

When I think about you now
Reflect on your beautiful
Ethereal presence,
It feels like I am bargaining
With your shadow,
The kind my cat chases
Thinking that this time
This time he'll finally get it,
He'll finally win.

Your shadow is as beautiful as you are
Albeit darker
And haunting
maybe a little more pure.
I look for you within it
Even though it is yours,
It does not belong to you
Or to me.
How can one possess such a thing?

I don't know why the ghost
Of your presence follows me around
And in vain I try to close my eyes
Because in this state of half dreams
I see you here with me again,
Hands on my hips,
Lips on my heart.

Instinct causes me to blink
Dreams to disappear
And this sudden betrayal of my body
Hardens me a little more,
Molds me into something more and less
Attainable,
More and less human,
More or less yours.

I remember you in music.
I forget you in words.
I see you in these shadows,
Oh how I will miss you when you go.