I turned 22 on Tuesday. I always felt 22 was the year of the lady. It's such a weird transition:
a) at 20, you're still a kid.
b) at 21, are you a kid or are you an adult? It doesn't matter because you can be both if you want to be. People still consider you "young".
c) at 22, now you're magically an adult? A "young lady"? Words like "kid" don't get thrown at you as often anymore and you're not viewed as little anymore. Any mistakes you make are on your head and the pressure to find a career just continues to mount. Strange, isn't it, how arbitrary numbers are guideposts into looking back at your life and measuring how much you've succeeded or failed.
I started this birth year with a fever, kind of like Zuko when he chose to abandon the search for the avatar in BaSing-Se. I need a General Iroh in my life, although I hardly think I'm at the crossroads of my destiny, though I am/was at a crossroads.
I have learned this. I'm Shan fucking i and I will not be an obligation or a standby.
If 22 is the year of the lady, then I will be a lady in my own right. I will stop grovelling for approval from people who really don't deserve any sort of place in my life, let alone a pedestal. You'll need me before the world ends.
Cheers.
a) at 20, you're still a kid.
b) at 21, are you a kid or are you an adult? It doesn't matter because you can be both if you want to be. People still consider you "young".
c) at 22, now you're magically an adult? A "young lady"? Words like "kid" don't get thrown at you as often anymore and you're not viewed as little anymore. Any mistakes you make are on your head and the pressure to find a career just continues to mount. Strange, isn't it, how arbitrary numbers are guideposts into looking back at your life and measuring how much you've succeeded or failed.
I started this birth year with a fever, kind of like Zuko when he chose to abandon the search for the avatar in BaSing-Se. I need a General Iroh in my life, although I hardly think I'm at the crossroads of my destiny, though I am/was at a crossroads.
I have learned this. I'm Shan fucking i and I will not be an obligation or a standby.
If 22 is the year of the lady, then I will be a lady in my own right. I will stop grovelling for approval from people who really don't deserve any sort of place in my life, let alone a pedestal. You'll need me before the world ends.
Cheers.
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