I AM HORRIBLE AT CUTTING PEOPLE OFF.
I've never done it before and now that I have to, well, in the words of a very Wise-au, "YOU ARE TEARING ME APART, LISA!" Not a literal Lisa.
When I become close with someone, I do not expect it to remain forever, but I expect that the parting will be organic and something both parties come to the (unsaid) conclusion to naturally.
But what if you need someone(s) gone from your life? Someone you thought would always be there? Someone you WANT to always be there but...but it's toxic because they treat you like shit! And the more you think about it, the more you realize, "Man, this person reallllllllllllllllllllly didn't care about me at all. Like this person/people treated me worse than they would treat a person who sold crack to their unborn baby." But being a typical girl, or by being a typical masochist, or a nice person I just keep on giving chances because I can't bear the thought of them not being involved in my life.
How? How can I go through life without sending them one more song? One more thought? Share one more poem? Lucky I have friends keeping me strong, but I feel so ridiculously pathetic that I often sit there and laugh at myself WITH myself about how pathetic I am. PATHETIC. I am such a sociopath.
Oh well, guess I have beef jerky. Oh wait no, I ate it. Meat <3
Cheers!
Like I've said, I'm kind of in the same boat. I think.
ReplyDeleteAlso my mind is inserting random animals into your blog post. I read about "a person who sold crack to their unicorn baby" and "PATHETIC. I am such a scorpion."
I should write your blog.
If it helps, I will laugh with you about how pathetic a scorpion you are. You're welcome.